Returning to civilization was not easy. But bug bits healed, cracked
lips mended, and a snobby nose for only high quality wine
returned. Adaption to social normals crept back, but so did the need for
long mindless miles. After a solemn days worth of pedaling roads
connecting roads of our hometown, through blanketed golden hillsides
that thirsted for water and forest infused tunnels that winded like
snakes beneath damp redwood pine needles, the miles drank every ounce of
fuel. A stop was needed to restore muscles with some sugary protein
infused plastic wrapped dense bar of carrot flavor. Upon return home
that evening, Ralph sniffed me out like a search dog on a mission. He
knew of that smell all too well, carrot cake Clif bars, and having sat
in a laundry basket for way too many days, too dirty from the Utah dirt
to share a bed or pillow with me, he demanded a reward.
But
first let me introduce Papsi, another dear friend, who hogs the big
golden dog's corner of our apartment with two wheels and a stellar
frame. She is built only of plastic and the fanciest of Italian parts,
light as a feather, but fierce as a Mammoths jaw, she beats any fogy up a
mountain. Her frame reads Ritte, built in Los Angeles, adopted from
Portland, she is a Belgian mutt of glory. Papsi has never spent a night
in the cold, or carried any load of any weight, but has her share of
travel. Open roads of very long distances over California's backyard
mountains, she shifts to precision, hits corners at exact angles, and
thrives on thrills for speed. She seeks long smooth rolling roads that
give way to room for head space and effortlessly flow like the wind. P
and I have had our journeys. Deep in thought, sometimes 5 hours of
pulling the mind in all directions. Ideas pinching through at the tissue
creases of the brain. She doesn't let the world go by without
microscopic observation. As if then we are sensitized to the things and
people around us. Unable to walk through life in a state of oblivion and
constantly reminding us that kindness is free and happiness is simple.
Long
rides with Papsi spark the questions: is riding millions of miles,
the urge to pick up and just go, a constant run from something? Seeking
something greater than society can provide us? Can the stars answer that
question or are they simply the most beautiful distraction out there?
Have we lost direction in the whirlwind of our busy emotional lives? Or
are the delusions of happiness sought in what the masses partake in?
Are all of the miles and hours on the backs of Papsi and Bianchi galloping to
find something greater or fleeting from something unwanted? Maybe they
are intertwined- needing each other to spark the inspiration to search
for something yet unknown.
Knowing
one too many youngsters that passed away this year, we take for granted
the picture of ourselves old and gray. Maybe all it took was hearing
about a friend on the side of a road in Kentucky 6 days ago, at age 24,
cycling from Maryland to Portland, struck dead by a car. Life is in the
moments we choose now, and it is too short to waste. Too many un-lived
dreams drown in the background. Sometimes the only option is to take the
open road that calls your name loud in the distance. Uncertain of its
direction, there are lots of comforts to toss into the wind, but journey
doesn't happen by sitting back and waiting. Only regrets will remain
like an unused new pair of running shoes sitting in a dark closet.
This
was all stewing for days, like the perfect farmer's veggie braise. As
if the brain was a porous sponge, absorbing every ounce of desire
within. There was nothing to fight, the inkling was too strong to
ignore, and too many coincidences collided. Sometimes you just gotta go,
be a little selfish, quite your job, and do something completely out of
the norm.
Friends and family were
flabbergasted, but with an all too supportive curiosity. Without a set
plan beyond wandering north on Bianchi with the Utahan comrades, could
we reach Alaska, 3000 miles north, before the bitter cold of autumn
turned trees a deathly yellow? Or where would we end up? Casing summer,
long days, warm nights, and friendly strangers in small towns, up the
continent of North America on bicycles, suddenly a world became an all
to huge backyard of freedom. Where spontaneity can run wild, control is
handed over to life's circumstances, and once again so grateful for a
healthy physical form that can pedal to infinitely and beyond, we will
see, smell, and touch the corners and crannies of this planet.
Ralph
and I sat down for a serious talk. This was no longer an excursion
around a desert state for a handful of days, but a serious undertaking
of miles and gear. Bianchi would have to be upgraded, shedding her birth
parts for a few lower gears, and Ralph, love the dude, but the reality
was he was simply a materialized bulk of non necessities. Our talk turned
into weeps, then sobs, and I was left pillow-less for the night, as this
stubborn reindeer refused to share a bed. Trying to bribe him with a
stamped boxed plane ride to see his dear German friend in a far away
town of Munich, nothing satisfied his adventure-protesting soul as he
insisted this story would be incomplete and dull without his boisterous
input. Desperation set in as he did laps around the squareness of our
apartment, trying to trade a single pound of carrot poof for a ride on
Bianchi's back. There was nothing left to say, I was about to once
again haul a stuffed reindeer thousands of miles up the North American
coastline in search of something unknown. Staring deep into Ralph's
eyes, somehow this mass of furry weight became an all too real catalyst
to a childhood imagination of a fairy tale world that we were about to once
again escape to.